Worldofmyown

Thursday, December 31, 2009

YEARLY REFLECTION POST 2009

How do you spend your eve? I am currently staying at home, just came back from Grandma's place. Intend to go countdown with leow but I overslept(was taking a nap)till 5.30pm when we're suppose to meet at that time. Woke up,oblivious about whats happening and told my mum about it and she said we had a family gathering so last minute I told him I cannot make it. If only I am with a big group of people counting down,watching fireworks,partying,taking pictures,enjoying myself. Currently watching channel 8 and 5 countdown tv show! So anyway, here comes the reflection post for 2009! :D

Another year has passed.
I can't believe I am taking O level next year.

This year was a tough and eventful year. Because I had never felt so hardworking before. Especially for Mathematics. For the first time in my life, I am officially a N and O level candidate. Having to sit for a major exam and having to been through mugging sessions and late nights with everyone and worry for results, the nervousness in me when I saw the exam papers right infront of me, first time stepping out of my comfort zone and started to work at a hotel as a waiter. Knowing how important education is and got to study really hard to get a better job in the near future,how cruel the society may be once I stepped out of school and lastly, how difficult it is to earn every single cent which I took it for granted to just take money from my parents and complaining to them about my dis-satisfaction towards my own life. I want many things, but they couldn't afford. I am really not a filial son, but I think work makes me a better person in terms of mindset and behaviour. Also, work has provided me opportunities to meet more new friends and exposure to more people because I had served weddings,company dinner&dance,asian television awards,tpjc prom night and all. I am so glad god allow me to meet them and they were not those fussy guests that some of my friends had met. So this year, I had balance between school and work in which both had taught me lots of things which will eventually be helpful.

Also, I would like to THANK EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU. For all your encouragement,words,well wishes,smses,tags,facebook messages. THANKYOU SO MUCH! I need motivation, I need concern, I need love from you guys and its amazing that you're my friend :)

The happiest moment in my life is with family and friends. The 3D2N Thailand trip with family during the March holidays, never-ending shopping, stress free environment at Thailand. What I did is just waking up, sumptuous breakfast buffet and really enjoy myself for the entire day and back to rest. Its just awesome if I am able to lead this kind of lifestyle. In Singapore its just totally different. Sometimes we just need to have a slow pace of life to see the world. Next, having to meet up with the express people like edison,justin and the rest every morning at the canteen tables, the chit-chat session in the early mornings and I will never fail to laugh at how both of them will just argue and bicker with each other. It feels heartwarming to see everyone during school days, those hi's and bye's and having to text with each other while we were preparing for N/O level. Of course, having to do well for my N level. I am glad I prove to myself that whatever obstacles I met, I can overcome it with the help of god and myself. Seriously, life ain't a smooth ride for all. I have a period of time when I feel so stress out and did so badly for my mid-year and it was totally a nightmare. If you know, I only had my own buddhist organization tuition which was definitely not enough. I mostly depended on myself to do well in my studies with the help of friends. I struggle at times, but I tell myself I will just persevere and clear all my doubts, keep trying and I guess everything IS worth it. I remembered how I really drill myself during those period of time, chinese intensive lesson when me and weiting will always feel very tired and sleepy in class because we just keep doing other school papers. But it pays off with an A2 :) Completed ten year series to prepare for N level, time was extremely precious like I will really treasure the one hour while watching the tv and having dinner,then after that it will be studying AGAIN. x100 worried for Maths especially I had sprained my neck in the morning for paper one. You know I worked so hard for it then I went to school with a head that can only look straight and can't turn right/left/up/down completely. I didn't smile, everyone was telling me not to worry,relax but is actually the pain that is the main reason.

I dont do well in my academic last time, more of like during the primary school days. Many people looked down on me in the past and even thought that I wouldnt be able to pass my PSLE. But I have prove them all wrong, and I swear I will never let people look down on me and my family. I will work hard and give the best to my parents. As I said karma, those who looked down, laughed behind my back, insult me were better than no where. Just wait and see because even till now I remembered what you said and what you did. God will punish you for your action so I do not have to say more even though I still have this kind of hatred to them.

From 2E blog, Miss Chan's entry:
This is great news for all of you who are going Sec 5 - and indeed worthy of celebration. After the celebrations, go back to school with the correct attitude and really work all you have for Sec 5 - for your dreams. O levels is a leap from N levels, so you will really need to put in all you have - don't be complacent, don't waste even the first 1-3 months playing and enjoying yourself without studying. Since you've spent so much time for 4 years, don't waste everything down the drain for your final year, okay? Don't lose yourself in pc games, lan games, bgr, blah blah, and lose focus. Whatever that is, don't give up - fight!

Yes. I cannot be complacent.
I cannot be stress.
I cannot waste time
No matter what, just keep trying and I will keep fighting till the end.
This is the REAL last step to my dream course and career. I need to work hard for it.

Many people were saying 2009 isn't a good year. But I think its alright for me. 2010 will be a better year.

My resolution for 2010 :

Do well for O levels. Get into mass comm/chinese media&communication at Ngeeann. I know I am not a competitor as compare to other students whose english is so much better than me to get into mass comm. Also I dont listen to english music often, so that is just another disadvantage. But I am going to give it a try, if not chinese mass comm will do since I already intend and set my aim to be a 933 deejay so why not?

Stop being a spendrift. Please,my bank account is decreasing. It just increase when my hotel just bank in my pay. A lesson learnt. Its scary how I do not have any financial planning and just keep spending from a few hundredSSSSSSS to a few dollar. I will never let this happen,again.

Have enough $$ for a surgery(impossible). Sweaty palm sucks. Do you even think I want it? No.

Exercise and train more. I am only able to do 1 pull up and pass my napfa test. Can you imagine?

Get rid of pimples because they actually cause me to lose confidence when I saw other guys with smooth face!

Learn how to swim. I know the basics but was having flu in sec 1 so I couldn't hold my breathe in the water so ya lah I fail the test the instructor dont wanna give me the 1 frog certificate! lol.

Attend vocal training at some music school. Ahem, it includes if I have got extra money. What if one day some music company director thinks that I got potential and sign me as a singer and I will be famous? HAHAHA. Its not wrong to just - daydream :D

Attend radio course, 5 days for $500+ dollars. Totally zz.

Improve on my command of english. Really, sometimes my tongue twisted while speaking in english.

There is just so much to push fate. I just pray that God use whatever little I
have and multiple that to do my best in everything and put me my best-self, to
always stay by my side, leading and guiding me. I thank the people who believed
in me and everyone around me was so willing to help me along, in a way or
another. No one knows what I am thinking, no words under heaven could ever
describe.

To end this entry, THANKYOU 2009 for being such a good year for me. Its time to say goodbye and hello 2010. Bring it on and I am looking forward to a brand new year, a fresh start and a new beginning.

MEMORY LANE.....

PS : Is the pictures too small/pack? I think so. Nevermind :)